The afternoon was much lazier, I spent the time cleaning but mostly relaxing... I feel rejuvenated after having the six days off. I really needed the time and I was able to spend most of the time with my Valentina.
We were able to get in about a thirty minute walk today... I've been working on getting at least thirty minutes in each day... it's not easy as I have so many excuses that I have to get passed. I wish I didn't have so many but I plan to push through them all.
My sister and I were chatting this morning and discussing our upbringing with Ruth ... she brought up the fact that Ruth was abused as a child. When I reminded her that although the three of us had been physically abused by Ruth... not one of us abused our own children.
We have the ability to change how we were brought up... frankly we knew that Ruth was wrong and we all knew that we didn't want to repeat her terrible behavior. Ruth was weak... she still is because she can't admit that she was wrong to treat us as she did.
She will have to live with her behavior and she alone will have to answer for her treatment of us... I'm grateful that I don't have to worry about when or how she will be dealt with... I'm just thankful I'm not her. I have my own things to deal with... as we all do... as much as I feel that I have the right to judge Ruth, I don't though... I only need to worry about my own actions.
When I release myself from judging Ruth or anyone else, it takes a lot of stress out of my life. I know that some people have the need to see other people pay for their behavior, I have no desire for any of this. I don't want her or anyone else to dictate my happiness ... I like that little bit of freedom that I have, these people cannot affect my life anymore...
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥